Not a word I like. Really I hate change. I do like control and predictability. But following Christ doesn’t really seem to be about control and predictability. Slowly (and painfully) He continues to teach me to let go.

As we start a new year (and embark on yet another big change in our lives) I’ve been reflecting on the past several years. For the last five years I think I’ve started every year saying, “Surely we will not have as much change this year as we did last year and we will be able to settle in.” Ha! God has had different plans. So humor me as I document the changes of the past five years…


  • April: Working on my FNP and decided I needed broader experience, so I changed jobs to the Emergency Department at Chidlren’s Mercy–did I mention I like control and predictability–the ER is not really where you find those things… {I did end up loving this job though!}
  • April: “Met” Luke about shortly before switching jobs {as he was moving to Germany}
  • September: Two short months after our “official” first date Luke proposed {um, predictability?!}


  • March: married Luke, sold my house & car, put everything {including wedding gifts} into storage, said good-bye to family & friends, moved to Germany {new language, new culture, etc…}, changed degree plans for my masters {from nurse practitioner to public health}
  • October: found out we were expecting our first child
  • December: bought a house in Kansas in anticipation of moving back


  • March: moved back to Kansas {“we’re moving back “home”, going to have a baby, things will settle down now…”}
  • June: welcomed Brece into the world…changed our lives!


  • Started to feel a tug at our hearts {really mine at this point} towards adoption and caring for the orphan
  • Fall: attended an adoption workshop and started to really feel a call to adopt {and pray that God would pull on Luke’s heart too; He did}
  • Started to inquire about becoming foster care parents. Told it was not a good avenue if we wanted to adopt younger children {which we did}, decided to move forward anyway


  • January: made some calls to find out about taking a class {PS-MAPP} to become licensed as foster care parents…enrolled in one starting a week later…
  • March: “graduated” from the PS-MAPP class
  • April: took my oral exam and finished my master’s degree; couple days after my oral exam we had our licensing visit to become a licensed foster care home. At this visit we learned about a sibling set needing to be adopted…
  • May: received our license, within a few days this sibling set was at our house for a 2 day stay; 2 weeks later they moved in and became a part of our family
  • December: signed our intent to adopt {one of the last steps in the process!}

I have no idea what 2012 holds {other than finalization of our adoption!!!}, but there is already the possibility of some pretty big changes {more on that later when we know more details}. I do know that I serve a God much bigger than me and am thankful He is unchanging and completely worthy of my trust. There is much peace when I dwell in Him.

Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change.

~James 1:17